it's 12:54 am...

and i have a confession to make.

i am exhausted.

my semester is insane.

i know i keep saying it.

but it's true.

but despite all of the craziness that is my life...i confess this...

some of the best years of my life...have been as a theatre major at CSUN.

i look back at pictures.

videos.

of late night study sessions that lasted until the final the next day.

audition nights.

callback nights.

rehearsal nights.

greenroom photoshoots.

tears.

laughter.

growth.

happiness.

finding a large family of sorts...that shares my passion.

nicknames.

cast parties.

crushes on theatre boys.

the green paint in the greenroom.

the red doors in the entire building.

garry lennon.

paula higgins.

aj kim.

professors who have changed my life.

and you.

the people.

my friends.

my loves.

my crushes.

my family.

i love you.

thank you for showing me a kind of happiness i'd never found in education before.

for showing me how good it feels to work hard.

thank you.

picture proof:

ok. i went picture happy.

you get the point.

confessions of an actress...

this is the first truly "free" moment i've had all week.

deciding to be a crew head for a show. 

while i'm IN a different show.

and one of the prop masters FOR that SAME show.

(did i lose you?hah.)

while taking a full plate of classes this semester.

crazy.

i'm crazy.

but i'll tell ya something...

as stressed as learning this New Jersey dialect is making me...it's incredibly satisfying when it sounds authentic.

as exhausted as i am each morning, i know i'm learning some major life skills.

i'm surrounded by wonderful people.

at school.

on ichat at the end of the day.

or within the comfort of my own family.

i am sleepy.

i am happy.

i am memorizing like a freakin maniac.

i have incredibly sore feet from being in heels for 4 hours straight every night this week.

but i wouldn't trade any of it.

honest to god.

i would not.

i'm so proud of my cast.

they are wonderful people who work so damn hard every single night.

i can't wait to show the world the waiting room.

(ok. world was ambitious...but the CSUN community+friends)

be grateful bloggers.

and like i've said before.

when life gets monotonous...challenge yourself.

it's a push you won't regret.

look who's growing up...

little miss dakota. you are turning into a very lovely young woman.

can't wait to see her in the runaways.

not to mention her scene stealing in twilight. seriously best part of the franchise.

2010

just got a little bit more wonderful.

bring it on baby.

let's do this thing.

coachella. ella. ella. ella. ay. ay.

to say i'm excited for Coachella this year.

is an understatement. 

with bands like:

MUSE

Jay-Z

the temper trap

phenoix

mgmt

julian casablancas

and many many many MANY more.

i simply cannot wait for the musical weekend that lies ahead.

this may be the first year we actually go all 3 wonderful days.

i'm also looking forward to keeping a very wonderful tradition alive...for the third year.

the same group of wonderful people.

in a wonderful house.

let's take a look back...shall we?

oh Coachella. you cannot come soon enough.